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[27 Jan 2006|06:24pm] |
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yep, i love how i spend my friday nights alone at home.
talking to poloboy on aim about upside down question marks (¿).
i cant call my friends; of course they have plans.
and then there's me.
i would say more.
but i would regret it.
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[26 Jan 2006|08:56pm] |
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i guess an update would be nice.
josh is lovely.
i miss new years.
i miss waking up next to him. :[
he's a nice boy.
most of the time. :D
i'm going shopping for my snowcoming dress this weekend, hollaaaa.
SUP @ REVIEW OF MY DAY:
1st hour: lalalala boringest class ever, mr. campbells alright though. we watched a movie + took noteage.
2nd hour: even more boring than first hour. mrs rea is nice, but.. the boringest person ever.
3rd hour: my arms are in the worst PAIN. we were in the weight room. what fun. :\ (exceptnot.)
4th hour: i love mrs murphy, she's so cute. :D umm. yeah. we did vocab. and me and haas looked at funny words in the dictionary like "HARD-AND-FASTNESS" (yep its a word!!) and "ERECTION". lolololll.
5th hour: uhh. checked homework, notes, homework. i love erica kranson.
6th hour: i don't know why everyone hates mr taylor, i think he's a funny guy. and he's pretty nice to me. and well, he's a total hottie. (you know my thing for science teachers.) ew, i'm kidding. but, i like him. he's cool. nikki is hilarious.
JOSHJOSHJOSH. ♥
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[23 Jan 2006|09:19pm] |
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so, this was my journal entry from march 30th, 2005. about a year ago.
i want a boy. a boy that fits perfectly with me. he'll have semi-long, dyed black hair, & the bluest eyes you'd ever see. he'll make up cute little nicknames for me, & call me a new one each time we talked. he'll listen to something corporate, & straylight run, & all those other sucky piano-rock bands. he'll play acoustic guitar, & make a sad attempt to write a song about me. we'll call each other names, but he'll make sure i'm joking. & on those days where i feel like crap, he'll come to my house & hug me & make me feel all better. he'll be cute, but not too cute, i don't want every single girl to be all over him. we'll talk on the phone for hours every day, & be dissapointed to hang up. & we'll sneak out in the middle of the night, & meet up at the park, & just talk about everything. we'd kiss a lot, & make sure people saw, because we'd love annoying people. he'll come to my house over the weekends in the morning, when i'm not even awake, & lay with me until i wake up. then he'd help me do my hair. & we'll take stupid pictures. his name would be something short & cute, like adam or ryan. i'd go to his house & dance with him to the worst music in the world. he wouldn't be scared to let me put makeup on him. & for the days where i can't talk on the phone, we'll stay online for hours & hours & talk through instant messaging. he'll try & put nailpolish on me, but it'd end up looking horrible, but i wouldn't care. he wouldn't mind my annoying habit for my teeth to always be clean. we'd go to a the killers concert & scream our lungs out, & come home exhausted, but too excited to sleep. he'd have enough talent to teach HIMSELF the guitar, & not go to lessons. he'd steal my zip up hoodies and wear them. he'd come over & lay on my bed, leaving my pillow smelling like his laundry detergent. he'd tell me that he loves me, & make sure i'd say it back. he'd be a livejournal geek. & we'd never have days that "we need to spend time with friends" because we'd be each other's best friend. he'd tickle me until i cry & then stop & kiss me. we'd attack each other with sharpies. & make out on his couch in his basement. we'd eat peanut butter straight from the jar. & he'd move my hair from my eyes when he wanted to kiss me. & i'd do the same to him. & he'd promise me he'd never break my heart. & he'd keep the promise. forever.
funny how things turn out.
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[22 Jan 2006|08:01pm] |
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so.
that last update was josh.
he's weird.
anyways.
i just got home from liz's house.
coz i go there every sunday for dinner.
(and when i need to do my nails.)
its good stuff.
i'm nervous for tomorrow.
but i'm looking forward to a fresh start.
i have all different teachers besides mrs ross, which is good, because she's the only teacher that really liked me last semester.
all i can think about is josh.
he drives me crazy.
asdjf;laksjdf;laskdjf.
i love him so much.
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[21 Jan 2006|08:13pm] |
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liz and jamesy and josh came over today.
we had fun and did stuff.
josh is still here and I'm touching him.
his spoon is half dropped.
i love him coz he is so sexy.
liz and james are gross coz they like each other a bit too much.
what would you do for a klondike bar?
josh is sexy.
he needs to joust drop his freakin pants.
and come to my bedroom.
at night.
at 3 a.m.
we put out a myspace bulletin earlier.
one of them chain letter things.
we made our own addition including gay bob who's boyfriend died during sex,
and steve who's dog died before steve had sex with him.
patrick reposted.
if you repost,add your own story.
i'm being boring.
sex is good.
TUESDAY.
that's all.
fuck you.
this is josh. this is not a test
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[21 Jan 2006|08:12pm] |
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1. Have we kissed?:
2. Do you want to?:
3. What would you like our relationship to be?:
4. Have we dated?:
5. Did you like it?:
6. Do you want to date?:
7. Are we close friends?:
8. Would you be here if I needed you?:
9. Are you attracted to me?:
10. Mentally, sexually, or both?:
11. Do you love me?:
APPEARANCE
What do you think about my... -
12. Face?:
13. Eyes?:
14. Lips?:
15. Body?:
16. Arms?:
17. Legs?:
18. Clothes?:
19. Butt?:
20. Hands?:
21. Hair?:
OPINIONS
Do you think I'm-
22. Sexy?:
23. Beautiful?:
24. Hot?:
25. Cute?:
PERSONALITY
Do you think I'm-
26. Crazy?:
27. Nice?:
28. Fun to be around?:
29. Funny?:
30. Annoying?:
ACTIONS
Would you.. -
31. Share chocolate with me?:
32. Spend a weekend with me?:
33. Alone?:
34. Hook up with me?:
35: Do me?:
36. Care if I ran away?:
37. Care if I died?:
38. Miss me if I left?:
39. Hang out with me?:
REACTIONS
What would you do if.. -
40. I kissed you?:
41. You found out I was missing?:
42. You found out I was in the hospital?:
43. You found out I was dead?:
44. I cried?:
45. I asked you for help?:
46. I told you I loved you?:
47. I told you I hated you?:
48. Someone told you I wanted you to kiss me?:
49. Someone told you I had a crush on you?:
YOU
In the last week have you.. -
50. Wanted to kiss me?:
51. Wanted to see me?:
52. Wanted to chill with me?:
53. Wanted to tell me you loved me?:
54. Wanted to spend alone time with me? :
55. Wanted to get to know me better?:
56. Thought about me?:
57. Missed me?:
58. Wanted me?:
59. Seen me?:
60. Kissed me?:
ME
Have I.. -
61. Kissed you?
62. Hugged you?
63. Told you I loved you?:
64. Made you happy?:
65. Made you sad?:
66. Made you angry?:
67. Made you feel better if you were upset?:
THE END
Are you.. -
68. Happy you know me?:
69. Going to post this is so I can answer it?:
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[20 Jan 2006|04:59pm] |
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i'm kind of in a really bad mood.
so if i freak out on you, i'm sorry.
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[16 Jan 2006|09:13pm] |
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heyy.
i hung out with liz for a bit today, it was good.
we laughed. a lot. so hard we cried.
thats nothing new, but it made my day so much better.
i'm not too thrilled at all for midterms.
+ i now have mixed feelings on next semester.
because i won't have any classes or lunch with josh anymore. :[
a;dklf. that makes me so mad.
i finally get content with something,
and they ruin it.
i know of no one in any of my s2 classes.
so here's my schedule:
1ST HR-CAMPBELL, HISTORY.
2ND HR-CARDENAS, INTRO TO NEWS/YRBOOK.
3RD HR-ROSS, AEROBICS.
4TH HR-MURPHY, ENGLISH.
5TH HR-HERNDON, ALGEBRA.
6TH HR-TAYLOR, SCIENCE.
tell me if we have any classes together.
its mucho appreciated.
i miss josh like a mother.
a;dlksjf.
i'm freakin out.
now i have to go do that stupid constructed reponse for marzolf. i have no idea how to answer it. rawrafdlkj.
i might just go eat some vegetable soup.
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[16 Jan 2006|12:34am] |
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yo sup kids.
uhh.
yeah i'm doing good.
i'm doing really good.
i miss my boy.
i spent the night at liz's last night.
lololol @ us being together 24/7.
she's pretty coo.
jamesy came too.
uh yah. so tonight's boring.
someone call me.
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[13 Jan 2006|03:28pm] |
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you dreamed he'd shine like the sun
now your son has set
hey dad, grab another cigarette
ashes fall like an unpaid debt
come on everybody, place your bets
in seventh grade he dug his grave
trying to be cool with the cool kids, hey
follow everything they say
you might fit in if you misbehave
at sixteen, he promised he'd be clean
you didn't bend but you sure did lean
you do not deserve this
hey mr. wilmington
yeah i heard about your son
it's hard enough to hide your scars
in small town usa
sweet mr. wilmington
yeah i read about your son
don't blame yourself
you raised him right
remember that when you can't sleep at night
at 21 you found his gun
hey dad, it's just begun
the ties that bind they come undone
come on everybody just for fun
at 24 you found him on the floor
decadence was all he wore
you do not deserve this
at the funeral
read his eulogy
insincere apologies
you do not desrerve this
all the papers and press decide
hey, just another suicide
you do not deserve this
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[11 Jan 2006|09:38pm] |
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i have nothing to say except..
if i knew the date we changed semesters, i'd be counting down.
+ i went to josh's after school yesterday.
no details or anything, but..
i still have some innocence left.
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| I CHIIIME IN, "HAVENT YOU PEOPLE EVER HEARD OF CLOSING A GODDAMN DOOOOOR?" |
[09 Jan 2006|05:05pm] |
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mm so whats up.
school has been gay. thats no surprise.
i have so much homework today.
which i should be doing right now,
but i procrastinate everything.
hahah, i love all my english paper titles.
so, my toxin essay was called "greedy greedy yes indeedy"
+ the paper on why high school sucks is called "high school, shmi shmool".
yeah i'm sweet.
i'm colllldddd!!
alright, it's official.
i can't wait till next semester.
kind of.
i don't know of anyone in my classes,
but i'm really fucking sick of that marzolf bitch and just..
ugh.
asdlkfjfasdf.
i can't wait till winter break though!!
i'm going to mount pleasant with liz, again! :D
eek, i am so excited. i love it thurr.
i should probably get my homework done now.
coz you know.
whatevz.
schools gay.
but mrs ross is like my favorite teacher, EVUH.
ONE MONTH!? ♥♥
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[06 Jan 2006|11:29pm] |
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LMFAO.
YOU WANT THAT IN THE BACK OF YOUR DURANGO.
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[06 Jan 2006|09:07pm] |
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tonight was actually pretty bad until erica & haas saved the day & made me smile. :]
coz errrca said this:
my mom she gave me a nickel, she said go buy a pickle, but i aint buyin no pickle, instead i bought some bubble gum, bazooka-zooka bubble gum, bazooka-zooka bubble gum.
.. its an inside joke.
and haas was all like:
MCthundercat1: oh yeah
Auto Response from surreptiitiious: :'(
MCthundercat1: just cryin
.. which is also an inside joke.
.. shut up.
don't rain on my parade.
they cheered me up. :]
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[05 Jan 2006|03:55pm] |
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this is pretty much all about my hair.
i've realized that i'm obsessed with it, thx.
i don't know if i should stay blonde and black for a while, or change it up a little bit. i want this one certain color, i can't even put a name on it. it's really really dark, almost black, but its got like reddish purple in it. errrghh. i think i'm getting hair extentions, too.
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| i bet this entry is gonna make some more people hate me. :] |
[04 Jan 2006|08:36pm] |
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i really don't think i can trust anyone.
its funny how the only people that hate me are girls.
not to sound cocky but.. you're just jealous.
alright. the only girls i really like anymore are liz and erica.
i really don't have trust in anyone else.
too many people have talked shit about me.
and you know what's funny?
THEY DON'T KNOW A THING ABOUT ME.
so, here's what they know. here's whats gotten around:
i'm a bitch. a boyfriend stealer.
here's the truth:
i'll be a bitch if i have to. if you're bitchy first, then i have every right to be a bitch back. i say what i feel, and if you have a problem, fuck you?
i don't steal anyone's boyfriends. i know what you're thinking: LOLRIIGHT. okay. it's not my fault they talk to me. i don't do anything to make them like me. i guess i'm just naturally pretty spiffy, right? right. and.. it's pretty much impossible to steal anyone's boyfriend if you dumped him first... common sense?
i'm sure this is what you're thinking:
god, she's full of herself. what a hoe.
WANT SOME MORE TRUTH?
i really don't care. :]
so go ahead, flood me with the stupid comments - I LOVE THE ATTENTION.
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[03 Jan 2006|07:03pm] |
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so, this is my first entry of 2006; i feel rejuvenated.
WHERE SHOULD I START.
how bouttt the day before i left for up north.
i spent le night @ ehliizuh's with jessiepoo. we got crunk.
so the next dayyy we left for up north. :]
i love josh.
new years couldn't be better.
it actually could. i could think of a few ways.
but i don't regret anything.
up north was kinda boring. all me and josh did was take naps. and, stuff.
i dunnoooooooooo.
i love him though. alotalot.
today was a waste of day.
i hate school.
20 days left till we switch for next semester classes.
i'm excited & not so excited at the same time. :\
did i mention i love josh SO MUCH?!
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[28 Dec 2005|07:58pm] |
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god, my mom is the bitchiest bitch that ever bitched.
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[28 Dec 2005|02:54am] |
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surreptiitiious: omg josh
surreptiitiious: omg
surreptiitiious: orgasm
surreptiitiious: omg
surreptiitiious: ughh
OrganizdxAnarchy: i love you
OrganizdxAnarchy: sex!
OrganizdxAnarchy: in
OrganizdxAnarchy: ou
OrganizdxAnarchy: out*
surreptiitiious: uggghhhh h
OrganizdxAnarchy: in
OrganizdxAnarchy: out
OrganizdxAnarchy: in
surreptiitiious: harder
OrganizdxAnarchy: out
surreptiitiious: uh
surreptiitiious: uh
OrganizdxAnarchy: in
OrganizdxAnarchy: out
OrganizdxAnarchy: in
OrganizdxAnarchy: out
OrganizdxAnarchy: in
OrganizdxAnarchy: out
OrganizdxAnarchy: in
OrganizdxAnarchy: out
tonight was defenitely interesting.
now if you don't mind,
i'm gonna go touch myself.
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